In Gratitude for Beauty

Copyright Dianne Lehmann

Now and then I am astounded anew by the incredible beauty and unimaginable complexity of the world around me. I feel awe and appreciation and gratitude for being allowed to be a part of it. I experience a closeness that gives me peace and a sense of purpose like nearly no other thing can. It is wonderful and awesome and so intense that I am actually thankful this feeling comes upon me only occasionally.

The thing that sparks this feeling can be small. It might seem like nothing at all. I will notice something, think nothing of it for a moment, and suddenly find I am overwhelmed with sensation.

Did the day just become suddenly colder? Did the sun just brighten? Had that fragrance been there all along?

Maddie, our dog, and I were walking the other morning. She stopped to poke her sensitive little nose into a pile of leaves. A light breeze was blowing and the leaves were falling from the trees around us. I glanced down at my feet and saw a dead cicada lying just in front of the toe of my shoe. And then it happened.

The feeling is fleeting, but immense. It rushes over me like a relentless wave. Indomitable. There and gone.

I sometimes wish that it would last longer. I think that if it did, I might be able to figure out all of life. But I can never hang onto it. And perhaps that is just as well.

In only a couple of seconds I see the life cycle of the cicada laid out before me. The leaves from the trees tell me about their lives as well. I hear in the song of the birds the message that winter is coming. For a few seconds, I consider it all. The worms in the earth, the tiny things living upon my skin, the beating of my heart, the life of my little dog. I feel connected in a way that cannot be described with words.

Occasionally, I will stand and stare into the far distance, the sun warm upon my head. I will listen to the wind in the trees and wish that I might slide into that other state of existence where everything is so incredibly clear. But the feeling never comes at my bidding. And perhaps that is also a good thing.

I stand in gratitude for all that has been given me. But I especially stand in gratitude for beauty.

Published by Dianne Lehmann

I'm a writer. But I'm also a wife and a mom to a couple of fur babies. You could call me a cook (but never a chef, I'm not that good) and provisioner as well. Laundress? Yeah. Probably. I design jewelry and I crochet. But mostly I love to write. I love words and how they sound. I love their meanings and origins. I love stringing them together. And of course, I love to read. Thinking about it just now, I realize that what I love most is life and the people around me with a special place set aside for my wonderful husband, our adorable dog and our inscrutable cat. It's the world and the people in it that fuels my writing. So thanks to you all for being the amazing beings that you are.

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